Tuesday 31 March 2009

I'm (partially) DONE! and thank god I did not give up halfway =)

Officially, my term has ended. YES! That does mean that I HAVE NO MORE UNIVERSITY ( BACHELORS LEVEL) CLASSES to attend. I'm done with Uni!

Really? Now where did all those three years of Uni life go to? One thing's for sure, it wasn't one very easy journey to go through, nonetheless, one I will cherish for whatever has taken place throughout and whatever I have been put through. I'm thankful. Alhamdulillah. 

My finals starts on the 26th of April, afterwhich, I will have to vacate this house of mine in London, go seperate ways  with my housemates, and will be on my flight to France with Abang and Kak Azura, my lil princesses nieces for a lil camping trip in Paris! =) InsyaAllah, if I make it, my graduation will be in July. I HAVE TO! For my parents and my abang :) I will push myself to the limits, yes I will. Afterall, Papa and Mama have spent  so much already on the flight ticket for something that is not known to happen in the future. So, if they are that confident in me, and took that risk, so will I. For them, I'd sacrifice whatever it takes.

For a start, things have been way better =) Alhamdulillah. 

Uni term. Done
Job interviews. Done
Masters. Done

I'm so thankful =) I need sleep now, at least a lil more than the usual 2 hours per night. I need it.

I'm just waiting to leave for the airport and be home at the moment. My flight is in 3 hours! Malaysia is waiting. 

Friday 27 March 2009

This chance to make it

I'm prepared. Prepared to push myself to the limits. To take this chance. This chance to MAKE IT!

So when people ask "What's your plan after this?"

I can never answer them with a definite answer. Why? Because I'm indifferent between my interest to take my education a step further, and my eagerness to start experiencing work stress and pressure.
Maybe because I want both, but have not thought properly about my game plan. I don't know what options are laid down for me. I'm filled about uncertainties. Why? Because no one replied. Yup, no replies. Jobs? none. Masters? none. I'm already tired of being patient and motivated.

This is when my energy gets drained by the day just trying to find the best option for myself and at the same time juggle with revision for my final exams. Something just as significantly important as deciding about what I want to do in MY future. They're all number one in my to-do priority list.

but... I've been "psycho-ing" myself and at the same time praying really hard for things to get better. Just because.
This is not the time to give up and even if I fall, I'll just get up and try again. 
With that in mind, I will not lose hope with myself, nor will I stop pushing myself because there's too much at stake and upon myself I must depend. and so I will.

For whatever reasons that anything might happen, I'll never quit. Because I've promised myself to not let myself down and there's still ways to go. Someway. Somehow. Whatever it takes.
Well, my once in a lifetime won't be back again, would it? So now is the time. It may never come again, so let it in.