and I never thought it would affect me this way. It just sucked all my happy mood away (and on a holiday?), even when I'm in a period when my training has just ended on a high. I wished I could live with happy music continuously playing in my head at all times. I hate this week! So much...
Why do I always have to let go of something that I like? I don't understand. From sports (Yes I wanted to do performing arts and compete days before my biggest national exam; SPM), to work (Masters was my initial plan), to career ( Firms confused me ), to everything....Probably I was meant to learn it this way. But this one, it's just different. There's nothing to proof like my 9A's in SPM plus it's already something unfavourable.
and when I think about it, I am always very happy in the office, despite the work and pressure and all those immense stress. Why do we get a holiday when I need happy times with them? Monday please come quick!