The whole country felt you, through your eyes, throughout the journey that you've shared with us. Having been in a competitive sports myself, I couldn't help but shed tears watching him fight his way till the end in his last game. He's tired, the whole country was watching him, and he indeed felt the pressure to bring home Malaysia's first ever GOLD.
He may not have brought home that piece of Gold medal, but his spirit and act were GOLD.
Please don't cry for you have done more than you can ever possibly do and you have nothing to apologise for. No one will ever know exactly what you feel, but do know that each and everyone of us Malaysians have you to thank for.
At least if you retire from this, you know that you're retiring at a high - having beaten Lin Dan AND was in the running for a GOLD MEDAL! You will forever be everybody's CHAMPION!