So when people ask "What's your plan after this?"
I can never answer them with a definite answer. Why? Because I'm indifferent between my interest to take my education a step further, and my eagerness to start experiencing work stress and pressure.
Maybe because I want both, but have not thought properly about my game plan. I don't know what options are laid down for me. I'm filled about uncertainties. Why? Because no one replied. Yup, no replies. Jobs? none. Masters? none. I'm already tired of being patient and motivated.
This is when my energy gets drained by the day just trying to find the best option for myself and at the same time juggle with revision for my final exams. Something just as significantly important as deciding about what I want to do in MY future. They're all number one in my to-do priority list.
but... I've been "psycho-ing" myself and at the same time praying really hard for things to get better. Just because.
This is not the time to give up and even if I fall, I'll just get up and try again.
With that in mind, I will not lose hope with myself, nor will I stop pushing myself because there's too much at stake and upon myself I must depend. and so I will.
For whatever reasons that anything might happen, I'll never quit. Because I've promised myself to not let myself down and there's still ways to go. Someway. Somehow. Whatever it takes.
Well, my once in a lifetime won't be back again, would it? So now is the time. It may never come again, so let it in.
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